Post Christmas reflection

12.26.25

Good morning! How are we today? I thought I’d start the morning off with a FB memory video post from 14 yrs ago! lol. Back when I lived in Florida and had no idea I’d ever end up in the middle of Kansas, or New Mexico or Michigan at that time. So weird, at that time I figured I was condemned to live in the Florida armpit for eternity, lol.

I also have another post from 3 yrs ago in Las Cruces, I thought I‘d share and see how far off I’ve strayed from it. I did not include photos…

Okay, first paragraph…I have a positive outlook, even more so than then. I am alcohol free have been that way for 3.5 years now. I drank wine that one Xmas/Nye what was it 2022? Then I had one beer that I couldn’t finish the past two labor days. I think I’m done with that, for good. That ship of self inflicted pain has sailed far far away. I have healthier ways of self soothing these days I prefer. My toe is still a shit show, I definitely do not paint my toes. The plandemic is over…right? Lol.

Second paragraph, lol. Yeah I just talked about nail polish storage again, I just need to add a few cases still using the same method of storage. Tangible art yes I have dabbled that 😂, I did get some Copics. They are really cool, I intend to get more in the future as I get more serious. I’m just playing right now while I learn techniques. I still have Prismacolours too, my mom doesn’t want markers, she is a colored pencil person.

Third paragraph, yes I like some permanence, even though I am aware of impermanence. On home owning, I’m a little behind but yes it’s still the goal. The area of interest is still basically the same. I briefly thought of AZ as my destination and I changed my mind after visiting a few times all the corners of it. Slightly too dry and hot even for me. But it is a runner up destination if I had to. Then I was thinking Alpine/big bend National park area. But now I’m more McAllen. lol. So yes Texas, I look forward to getting there soon…unless something really bizarre happens I should be there in less than 1.5 yrs.…to live out my life in a more settled way.

Fourth paragraph, yes I’m slow, yes I’m still coming. Now of course now I’m in Kansas instead of Las Cruces, which was a necessary step towards the goal, so now instead of four hours south I’m headed like +10hrs straight south. So the view has changed temporarily, but not the vision.

I will post again later…I have my cirque polish order for show and tell. I feel like this should be a stand alone post. Oh, I made a revamp of the feature photo I’ll post NYE…I think it’s super boom 😆💥 .

Cute but that little big boobed blonde was never taken seriously, she needed a little bit of a change so people could see past the surface to her depth beneath. Now that those changes have surfaced, I realize I’m done bending over backwards for the outside world validation, shove it up your asses* , I’m ready to retreat to my own sacred place where I can really open up and bloom and be of service to my…causes 🙂…

* not up your asses as in my audience coming here to see me, 😂 I’m talking about the outside world